Sunday, January 21, 2007

This Weekend

OK first of all

To the idiot that hit my mom on Friday morning and sent her to the hospital; I found you! I know where you live and I gave the correct information to the police after you lied about your address and lack of insurance. Instead of being a man you decided that being a lying pussy was easier; guess what asshole I found you and now the cops are looking for you.

To the unknown gentleman that stopped and helped my mom when she needed help the most I owe you more than I can repay. You were a hero in all of the definitions that apply. Thank God for Oxnard’s Fire, Police, and Ambulance service because all of you made my mom feel taken care of when she needed it the most.

To the “practicing EMT” and the ER nurse at St. Johns, you made everything easier for all of us in a stressful time. To the asshole doctors and staff at St. Johns hospital thanks for taking your time to release my mom. Your, “I’ll be back in 15 minutes to release you” statement that took 2 hours while you stood around and ate was infuriating and definitely telling about our health care system.

Happy Birthday to Jamie Bickel you are 18 years old and most importantly a good guy.

AMA Supercross in Anaheim on Saturday January 20th, 2007 was awesome. The good seats and great races made for great night for all of us. Tyler Evans thanks for the kind words sorry we didn’t make the party, It has been along couple of days and I know that going to your after race event would have been memorable.

Whoo Hoo Indianapolis made it the Super Bowl!

Thursday, January 18, 2007

We keep waiting on the world to change

“We keep waiting on the world to change”. How true Mr. John Mayer.

I am glad to be in the place I am today. I like being the “worker bee” and was extremely uncomfortable being part of the “Bosses Team” in my old job. I felt that I gave enough of my self in more ways than can be imagined and as a result I suffered as a person. On a hour-by-hour basis listening to 500 people complain about their job, their lives, etc took its toll and my health, passions, self worth, desires and most importantly my true heart all disappeared in my last job. I came home each night a little smaller, a little less me. I poured my heart and soul into fixing everyone else’s problem that I rarely took time to support or regenerate myself.

I ignored the signs of stress and I just had a few beers to calm down each night. The problem with that is a few beers each night is really a few beers each night and that leads to a six-pack or more every night for 4 or 5 years. It is hard enough to fix/worry about your own problems but when you try to sleep with other people’s problems still in your head it begins to wear you down. The toll it takes on your spirit, your soul, and your true self; well it isn’t for me anymore and I think I have given enough of myself. I can only think of the scene in Field of Dreams when Kevin Costner was speaking to James Earl Jones, “Leave him alone, he’s done enough.”

I realized this summer that I don’t have it in me anymore to be that committed to another person’s agenda again. I liked my old job but it seemed that after 10 years of being the “HAMMER” I grew bitter and short tempered to the point I was not able to listen to any one.

Well it is time for the world to change!