We keep waiting on the world to change

“We keep waiting on the world to change”. How true Mr. John Mayer.

I am glad to be in the place I am today. I like being the “worker bee” and was extremely uncomfortable being part of the “Bosses Team” in my old job. I felt that I gave enough of my self in more ways than can be imagined and as a result I suffered as a person. On a hour-by-hour basis listening to 500 people complain about their job, their lives, etc took its toll and my health, passions, self worth, desires and most importantly my true heart all disappeared in my last job. I came home each night a little smaller, a little less me. I poured my heart and soul into fixing everyone else’s problem that I rarely took time to support or regenerate myself.

I ignored the signs of stress and I just had a few beers to calm down each night. The problem with that is a few beers each night is really a few beers each night and that leads to a six-pack or more every night for 4 or 5 years. It is hard enough to fix/worry about your own problems but when you try to sleep with other people’s problems still in your head it begins to wear you down. The toll it takes on your spirit, your soul, and your true self; well it isn’t for me anymore and I think I have given enough of myself. I can only think of the scene in Field of Dreams when Kevin Costner was speaking to James Earl Jones, “Leave him alone, he’s done enough.”

I realized this summer that I don’t have it in me anymore to be that committed to another person’s agenda again. I liked my old job but it seemed that after 10 years of being the “HAMMER” I grew bitter and short tempered to the point I was not able to listen to any one.

Well it is time for the world to change!